Power in people.

When I was about thirteen, I had the most marvelous idea.
wait.
hold up.
Okay, start over.
When I was thirteen, I thought I knew everything. I also made a plan of how I wanted my life to be.You see here, I was going to be very successful, rich, and smart. I wanted to own my own company at age 24, and show everyone who's boss. Best part of this senario, I was going to be SO logical. So logical and WISE. I honestly, didn't want people to know that I had emotions. Cause in my mind, people who were emotional were weak. I convinced myself, that I would never be weak.
But really, I just wanted them to be scared of me.
When I was thirteen I thought that was POWER.
Power was being respected, revered and admired. And respected people had no emotion, tears, or fears.

That was a great idea at the time because I had zero self esteem. I wanted power, because I had none. I was just this dorky little girl, who was skinny, and had braces and was pretty dang awkward. I wanted to have all of these talents because well I felt like I had none. And to this day, I will never forget what my dad told me when I cried to him about my lack of talents. You wanna know what he said to me? "Amanda you have talents, you can talk to people, you can make people feel important and loved, and wouldn't you say that is a greater talent?"  I still wasn't truly convinced, but he went on to tell me that the most wonderful people in the world are those that can make others feel good about themselves." If you can talk to people, and listen and make them feel important  you will accomplish a ton. Power isn't controlling people, or showing them you are emotionless. Real power, is showing people that you can relate to them, that you can love them, and that you'll be there for them. The best leaders in the world are the ones who showed love, not control.  

I'm old now. Not a little thirteen year old. Not the little girl who wanted to own her business, and wanted not to show emotion. At that moment I realized some important things, their is nothing better than being a good friend, a good sister, aunt, mother etc. People mean way more than a successful business, or how much money or fame you have. Being able to relate is such a blessing, and although it comes at a price, it is something that I would never trade.
Till this day, I am glad for who I am. I may not be the best singer, best piano player, or most athletic, but I have tons of friends, and my talent is people, and I would never change that. :)

Till later- A